April 12, 2011


Waiting for justice to be served
The party who started the problem,
who's the root of all this mess still isn't taking any responsibility

I said this to a housemate, since when have ever adults admit to their mistakes?
Perhaps that's a biased statement
but it has some truth in it, hasn't it?

And whatever plans I have for this weekends had to be cancelled.
Dear Mind & Brain,
please stay sane for a bit and not crash. I still want to make rational decisions...

April 2, 2011


literally means 'voice'

A few series of events had been happening past few months here and it got so many people's emotion riled up and so much anger, frustration and confusion brewing rather than satisfaction. I do personally think it also generates hate, even if that's such a strong word to be used but alas, it's the truth after all. And looking at it from their point of views, who could blame them?

One of the many things that I don't understand is, why is it so hard to follow rules and regulations? I also don't understand the need to give false hope and pretense and the persistence of trying to bend the rules. Though it's easy to say 'it won't come to this if you didn't create the problem back then' the damage has been done and rather than living in the past, we have to move on.

From one view, perhaps injustice had been done and I really couldn't agree more. But try and look at it from another point of view- who knows what hikmah may come out of it?

"... But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not." (2:216)

"When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way." (2:186)

The results of the events didn't satisfy everyone. It also reopened old wound; so while perhaps I don't understand fully their feelings, I had been there and it was one of the biggest challenge I've ever faced. I do hope that this won't de-motivate them or make them feel inferior.

It just makes you wonder how just a handful of people could really kill you spirit... These people may live in ease now but there will be a day where 'what goes around comes around', Allahua'lam...

On the other note, I have two patients who have heart problem since birth and currently they are not doing so well... I was almost on  the verge of crying yesterday because the babies looked so tired... Please have a heart in you to pray for them to get better soon so they can have the operations that they need T__T
I would really thank you for that