December 31, 2004

Deemed To Be Forgotten

The tittle sounds nice in my head... It's a tittle of a fanfiction I read this morning :p

Anyway, haven't been around much lately, though you can say I've been on the net world everyday. However, the time to be spent on the net lately is not as long as I would have been doing back in Currie. A duty as a daughter, a sister and a student still require much of my time. For now that is.

And again, this weblog will be on rest for a while. Most probably until I'm back from an obligation in mid-January next year. Probably after Eid-Ad'ha. Such matter is confidential :p

Anyway, look around us. A tsunami that has never reached our coast suddenly occured and even went as far as Somalia. News everynight brought us latest updates on the rescue attempts done in various regions. Other people might look at it as nature's disaster, but for us Muslims, look at it as a different way. Isn't the disaster happened almost similar as the flood that hit the world during the Prophet Nuh's time?

There are a lot of verses saying about the things Allah sent down to the past people because of their ignorance. Let us not be among those whom Allah sent disasters too.

'Sesungguhnya Allah tidak berbuat zalim kepada manusia sedikitpun, akan tetapi manusia itulah yang berbuat zalim kepada diri mereka sendiri' Surah Yunus (10) ayat 44.

'Sesungguhnya perintahNya apabila Dia menghendaki sesuatu hanyalah berkata kepadanya: "Jadilah!" Maka terjadilah ia' Surah Yaasin (36) ayat 82.

Ini baru sedikit yang Allah timpakan, tapi cukup untuk menjadikan hidup manusia huru hara. Tatkala ini barulah kita mengakui kebesaranNya, dan betapa kecilnya kita...

December 13, 2004

Golden Hamsters and Days

O dear sun, golden sun... don't stop shining!
It's been days since you last showed yourself
And now that you are here again, let us have a bit of your warmth for a while

...For my mom hates using dryer to dry up the clothes :p

On behalf of my sis, Angah Za's request straight from Lancaster, UK (who called here a few times already, thanks, Za! ", ) I've uploaded Raya pictures, tho' they are not as interesting as other people's...

Note that pictures in M'sia are pictures of me and my family with my cousins and nephews only... And guess what, thanks to my dear cousin, my nephew Fikri called me 'Nenek'! I'm NOT that old!

Click on Pictures of Memories at the navigation bar and then click on 'Raya (Perth + M'sia)' or just simply click
here to view the pictures.

//2 nights before I went home, drank teh tarik at Makan Makan Cafe... The other day I dreamt I brought my mom there to eat :p

My neighbour's away somewhere so they left us with their golden hamsters to be taken care of. Huhu... Love to see the two creatures played and nibbling the kuaci!

//Kawai, ne? ^^

Oh, and not to forget, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ! to Farah Shuhana in Gambang at the mo' and Farid in Perth! May Allah bless you!

p/s- FAQ page I said to be put up has to be delayed, sadly...

December 10, 2004

Raining (In My Mind)

Rain rain rain...

I just love the wheather ^^

Makes you wanna sleep, snuggle more into the blanket! ^^

And boost my motivation to read the book and study too! ^^


December 8, 2004


It's Perth's winter here in Kerteh. Has been raining non-stop since yesterday.

The wheather's doing what I refused to do. But it's a good reflect of my own feeling.

'Tiada kesedihan dalam Islam' I keep on reminding myself. But... what about guilt?

December 7, 2004

"Ya Allah... Ya Rabb..."

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya..." Surah al-Baqarah ayat 286

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, mintalah (pertolongan kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan solat, sesungguhnya Allah berserta orang-orang yang sabar" Surah al-Baqarah ayat 153

"Dan sesungguhnya Kami berikan cubaan kepadamu, dengan sedikit katakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar, (yaitu) orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah, mereka mengucapkan "Innaa lilllahi wa inna ilaihi raaji'uun. Mereka itulah yang mendapat keberkatan yang sempurna dan rahmat dari Tuhan mereka, dan mereka itulah orang yang mendapat petunjuk" Surah al-Baqarah ayat 155-157

Ya Allah... jika ini adalah sebahagian daripada ujianMu, maka tabahkanlah hatiku ini dalam menghadapinya... Jika ini adalah balasan akibat dosa-dosaku, maka ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku... sesungguhnya aku tidak punya apa-apa dan Engkaulah yang mengetahui apa yang terbaik untukku... Aku redha, Ya Allah...

Amin, amin ya rabbal 'alamin...

December 6, 2004

Travel With Me

Well, I guess I'll stick to blogspot for the time being even until next year insyaAllah... Having difficulties to find leisure moments to concentrate on rebuilding the whole TWM especially when you have another 4 persons younger than you that you have to satisfy, each with different characteristics and antics! :p

Though... I don't quite like the new layout. But since my sis likes this one better than the other one, I'll stick to this one at the moment.
I forgot to jot that I also met Amalia at Low Yat Plaza last Friday.

I made this (picture below) the day after I know how to work on Adobe photoshop. My sister said I was so obsessed with Photoshop the other day that we were late to meet our cousins! I was hoping to do some more with only my beloved cousins and the journey to the Eastern States (Aust.)...

Soon to come: FAQ on history of TWM!So now Dalam Kelam is officially closed ;)

December 5, 2004

"Happy End"

Listening to: Happy End, Naruto Movie OST

I'm back in Kerteh at the moment.
On Thursday before I depart from KL, Rina, Nik, Shu and Ninie were kind enough and I sort of feel honoured that they came to visit me at my house in KL. So my mom cooked some laksa curry and invited some of my cousins and my grandmama over as well, which in the end, my beloved cousin Ummie had to help my mom with the desert.

Ida, an ex-SMKTM schoolmate who has been sort of lost in touch over the past year also came when we suddenly meet again in Friendster.

Then later on, my mom's friends also dropped by, as well as more of my cousins and Fauzan's family.
It was a tiring day but it was interesting!

On Friday, I followed my dad with my cousin stick around to help us for a while at Imbi Plaza and Low Yat Plaza... We browsed around to find my stuff mainly and lost track of time. It was 5 when we get out from the busy traffic and 6 something when I got home. At 7.30 p.m. I was in front of Nandos in KLCC and later on had dinner there with Baxter to return his unsold books and the money of his sold books. We catched up on the past year of studying medicine at 2 different unis and 2 different countries.

At 9, I was on the way back. My mom and dad picked me up at the LRT Station and we dropped by the neighbours' houses until almost 11.

Yesterday, for the first time I used the new Pantai Timur Highway. I like it since the travelling time got shortened. But the road was bumpy.... I was told lotsa people complaint too... wonder why??

November 27, 2004

Islam Hadhari

The 10 basic principles of Islam Hadhari:

  • Piety and faith in Allah
  • A just and trustworthy government
  • A free and independent people
  • The vigorous persuit and mastery in knowledge
  • Balance and comprehensive economic development
  • A good quality of life for the people
  • Protection of the rights of minority groups and women
  • Cultural and moral integrity
  • Safeguarding natural resources and the environment
  • Strong defence capabilities

Taken from Explaining Islam Hadhari by Arman Ahmad, New Straits Time, Friday Nov. 26 2004, Page 14 under the section Prime News.

(sorry, no proper citation for this. I will if there's a request, but it'll be strictly Harvard's style 'cos I'm used to that :p )

The 11 basic principles/fundamentals of Islam:

5 Pillars of Islam (Rukun Islam)

  • The testification of faith "There is none worthy of worship except Allah, and Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah" (Mengucap 2 kalimah syahadah)
  • Performing the prayers (Solat)
  • Giving out zakat (Membayar zakat)
  • Observing the fast of Ramadhan (Berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan)
  • Performing the pilgrimage (Menunaikan haji bagi yang mampu)

p/s- English text taken from The Fundamentals of Islam, Islamic Information Centre

6 beliefs/faiths of Islam (Rukun Iman)

  • Belief in Allah (Percaya kepada Allah)
  • Belief in His Angels (Percaya kepada Malaikat)
  • Belief in Devine Books (Percaya kepada Kitab)
  • Belief in His Prophets (Percaya kepada Nabi)
  • Belief in the Last Day (Percaya kepada Hari Kiamat)
  • Belief in the Devine Destiny (Percaya kepada Qada' dan Qadar)

p/s- English text taken from A Glimpse of The Islamic Faith, Islamic Information Centre

So, does this mean Islam Hadhari is different from the Islam that we know, belief and practice now that it has it's own principles?

Quiz for our brilliant mind:

What is ONE nation that no matter what they say about Islam, they are still Muslim/Islamic people? (Apa dia satu bangsa yang tak kira la apa2 sahaja yang mereka kata pasal Islam, mereka masih Islam?)

Answer: Malay (Bangsa Melayu)

p/s- Do I need to explain? Think about it. It happens everywhere with this 'bangsa'. Tolak hukum al-Quran pun still considered Islam, kutuk Nabi s.a.w pun still Islam, enggan ikut hadis dan sunnah Nabi s.a.w pun still Islam, mengagung-agungkan selain Allah pun masih Islam, buat/cipta hukum sendiri pun masih Islam... Hebat ya?

Wallahualam bissawab.

pp/s: I apologize to have to delay the Eid pictures until after I get back to Kerteh, which means after Dec 4th.

November 22, 2004

Home Sweet Home


Alhamdulillah I'm back at my house in Setapak KL now.
The past few days were very hectic, with packing and moving stuff to Mounts Bay Village.
And some of the stuff had to be put in one of the unit that's available now, and guess what, it's on the top floor, the fourth floor! And no lift, so we had to take the stairs!
Scratch that.
Not only that unit is on the top floor, but the rest of 3 units as well! Man, isn't it gonna be a good exercise next year? :p
Only mine and Alia's unit is not confirmed yet, till January.

Enough about that. As I said, yesterday was quite hectic, beginning with packing the rest of the stuff and sending them to Mounts Bay Village.
By one o'clock on me, Din and Gundat finished. Poor guys had to take the tvs and heavy computer stuff up to the fourth floor!

Then we reached Victoria Park's Recreation Centre a bit late, around 2.20 p.m. It was a Jamuan Raya by the Consulate of Malaysia in Perth. Luckily there was food because that afternoon, Currie Hall didn't provide any lunch!

When I reached the airport, it was a few minutes to 3 AND they only allowed passangers to go to the whole are of checking in. Usually there's an area where other people could wait while the passangers check in, but this time around, none anymore. I think it was because of the many people that's flying home. As a consequences, I didn't get to meet Ima and Hasni like planned! I'd like to apologize to them... :(

And then, when it was our turn, I had to repack because of overload. Luckily I checked in with Fauzan and Rizal, so I handed in the books into their places. That made us the LAST people to check in (and it was already final call and time to depart!) And we were being escorted to the gate :p The flight were delayed for more than half an hour due to some people hadn't board yet, namely us 3! :p

Barulah terasa apa yang dikatakan, kita hanya merancang, Allah yang menentukan!

Fauzan and Rizal got to sit in the bussiness class though! Lucky chaps! At the airport, I met Fauzan's family and Rizal's mom and youngest brother... Very nice people ^_^

Pictures? Give me a few days, yeah? I'll upload them insyaAllah... Right now there are a few more things to be settled. (and get nasi lemak/roti canai for breakfast instead of just cereal and toasts! :D)


November 14, 2004



I was just about to record the song I love from and they changed the song to a raya nasyid!!!!!!!!!! And I was streaming it the whole afternoon and night yesterday! The ilham only came before I went to sleep... And I was like, 'ok, I'll record it tomorrow as my personal file in the comp'

And now... huhuhu.... my heart's shattered to million pieces! I'll be haunted by the song all my life!! Ok, maybe I'm exeggerating here.

Anyway, we went for Sunat Aidil Fitr prayer this morning in Kings Park, and later on dropped by Nazim's house in Fairway (next to uni) under his invitation. All the pictures would be up AFTER my last paper on Thursday because I still need to get it from Azura. She and Diana will be going back tomorrow morning.

And I'll continue with lecture notes and PBL now :)


Post-scriptum: Called Faizah in Ukraine last night... and for a 6 bucks value left in my Global Dial card, I could only talk for 10 minutes! How unfair is that? And I called my family in KL this afternoon too... Huhuhu... surprisingly my bros all voluntarily wanted to talk to me :p And keriuhan as the background voice when I was talking to my mum made anticipation to go back this coming Sunday greater. Everyone's gathering at my Pak Long's house in Bangi 'cos my nenek's there, tomorrow only they're going back to kampung in Kuala Selangor. :)

November 13, 2004


"Welcome to the club" Abadi said earlier when I told him that we're celebrating Eid in Perth instead of Malaysia.

I was on the computer when I heard the brothers were praying Maghrib prayer (jemaah). Let me tell you that here in Currie Hall, since Alia and I was occupying the double room, it's situated on the guys' wing, thus I'm stuck on the guys' wing as well. So everytime they pray together (or everytime someone turn on Juz Amma a bit loud in the morning or all day :) ), we could hear them. Then suddenly I heard they bertakbir. I was stunned for a moment... 'Oh yea... esok raye!' Then Alia came in, 'Wani, dengar tak?!' I was like nodding and smiling from one ear to the other end 'Mmm... raye...' 'So confirmed la raya esok?' 'Confirmla kot'

Sayu... When I heard that there was a tug in my heart. So this is how it felt to celebrate Eid away from your family. This must be how Huda, Abadi and Tini felt last year (second time for Abadi tho' last year). And this must be how my Angah Shaza and Along Faizah in UK and Ukraine feel too since this is the first time the three of us celebrate it apart from each other, and in different continent as well!

'And this must be how they feel as well' Getus kata hatiku... Only now you appriciate the value of family, huh?

My body's shaking now. I haven't had proper meal since breaking the fast last night and missing sahur this morning. Maybe I should cook the maggie left or the mushroom soup that I bought when I was sick last month...

ATTENTION: Dalam Kelam Readers!

I've changed the URL from to So if you view this page using Dalam Kelam URL, then you might want to change it to Wani-Z because you won't see latest entries using anymore. This would be the last entry you see.

I'm really really sorry for screwing this up, for I just found out about it. Obviously I need to do something to stop the confusion now. InsyaAllah, it'll be settled by the end of the year.

In the meanwhile, redirect this URL to
Thanks, I appriciate it very much. And sorry for any inconvinience (sp?)


'Idul-Fithri: Jump to...


Just visited one of the blogs that I love to visit.
Jump to
fatiha-penawarku to read about Eid and sambutan raya umat Islam.
A very informative article.

Also while you're there, read about Khaulah binti Azur and Saidatina Khadijah r.a.
Touching facts and history (especially about Ummul Mukminin... almost made me cry)

Ergh... I need to get back to my books now...

post-scriptum: I can't believe I miss sahur again this morning! And on the last day as well! And will miss tradisi makan jemput-jemput on second day raya kat kampung! Huhuhu... lagi 4 tahun tak dapat makan jemput2 ngan my beloved cousins and auties sambil borak2 pagi 2nd raya...


Ok, I don't know how many times in a day I want to post an entry.
This 'soothing' song I was talking about before really boost up my motivation to write something despite the amount of FCP lectures and Problem Based Learning Cases that I have to read in preparation for the paper on Monday!

I just wanted to state the obvious. I changed the URL of to and I deleted the temporary page of TWM on hiatus. I guess after more than a month, I'm ready to open up again. So no matter which address you used, be it dalam-kelam or wani-z, you'll still be directed to this page. *Edited: If you used Dalam Kelam add, you won't see latest entry of wani-z. Darn, I'm so screwed up now! How am I going to fix this?* So much for 'in distress'! I can't get away from writing... It's blend deep within me since I was 12, what can I say? And I sort of have an idea where I want TWM to go, so there you go, as a result, I'm blossoming up again! Heh!

Oh, I also want to take this opportunity to wish all of you Salam Eid al-Mubarak and Maaf Zahir Batin! I know there'd be very little people to read this since it's a couple of days day before Eid and who would sit in front of a comp a couple of days before Eid? *I know I did, on the day of Raya itself when I was 15 :p* No fancy banner though... have no time to make those...

Pray for my success in this exam!


November 12, 2004


I was using Online English to Japanese to English Dictionary when I was writing a fanfic a few weeks back. And it just came across my mind of what would Wani (as Japanese word) means. Guess what? It means crocodile.


Huhuhu... sounds very aggressive huh? Am I like that in characteristic? I sure hope not.
What I know, Al-Wani in Arabic means colourful.
And Hazwani means 'My gift'

Hmm... I sure hope that I have both characteristics though this time ;)


Rambling of an absent mind

Forgive me for this entry. For a few moments I'm feeling like my old self- when I was 15-18 (and maybe a bit of 19) Thus this entry will sound more like when I first started blogging in August last year.

I'm listening (streaming is more like it... mati la... sure my uni Netusage turun lagi banyak... dah la nak balik, so malas nak top up... ah, biar aa!) to a 'soothing' song from and I love it 'cos it's fully flute (or maybe some woodwind family instrument if not flute), guitar (acoustic I think) and violin. I can't resist the sound of violin and piano, makes me all sappy and melancholic! *rolleyes*

When I got back from school this morning, I was thinking it might be good to spill everything in my head into my private journal... When I looked up onto the laptop screen, I neglected that thought. And now hearing this music again, I feel like jotting it down somewhere.

Fear... fear of failing;and blaming myself for wasting a lot of time and energy. Yet, I've never learned, huh? One minute you're full with determination, and next you forget your vow. How many times do I have to keep on reminding myself to change my habit and attitude? What could be a driving force for that? Work? Busied yourself with uni's activity? I don't know, but at the moment I'm prepared to try just about anything so this could work out.

Different emotions ran through my mind today. Calm and happy... then panic and restless... then fear and paranoia... then I feel like shutting myself from everyone else... 'don't you DARE ask me any questions' That was what I was thinking if anyone I meet try to ask me the question.

Then as I read the news, I felt surge of anger from my heart. Luckily I'm not the person who's so easy to swear around.. my tongue was not trained to speak up the dirty language even though throughout this journey my ears and eyes often came across the words. Al-Fatihah to Palestinian President, Yasser Arafat... Semalam petang masa called Ima, I told her... 'Eii... kalaulah derang tu semut yg kecik2, dah lama aku pijak sume2 sampai mati... Buat sakit hati je kewujudan derang ni dlm dunia' (well, the last part I added just now :p)

Then I looked back all the emotions that crossed my mind today. Should I feel sad and regret over a few papers? 'Orang Islam tak bersedih' Kata Hasni. "...tidak ada kekhuatiran terhadap mereka, dan tidak (pula) pula mereka bersedih hati" Al-Baqarah ayat 62. 'Biar lah apa nak jadipun sekarang... aku redha... at least aku dah berusaha setakat mana yang aku rasa aku mampu' I thought after Zuhur.

Should I get angry over the news?
'Ketika masyarakat dunia mengucapkan takziah dan berkabung, Perdana Menteri Israel, Ariel Sharon dan Presiden Amerika, George W Bush, menyifatkan kematian Arafat sebagai titik tolak yang membuka lembaran baru terhadap sejarah Asia Barat.' (Source:
Arafat Meninggal (Berita Harian) )
What the hell?! Oops... sorry... terlepas... Realitinya, mereka bersorak seorang lagi pemimpin Muslim meninggal... Yes... I loath these people... keep on counting their fingers how many left and to be taken down.

Ok... enough rambling of my absent mind. Anyhow, if anyone happens to know the name of the song I was talking about... pls pls pls pls tell me, so I could hunt for it? I'm sort of addicted to it already!
Time for Asr prayer, then off to library to take a certain book. Tonight might be the last Tarawikh. The other day I was so sad it's the end of Ramadhan I almost cried. Hopefully I still live next year to see yet another Ramadhan huh?


Post-scriptum: I keep on going to Geng Jurnal and have a look around... Hmm... very magnetic attraction... Am I attracted to it? Haha! Dream on, girl!

November 11, 2004

Rain and Ramadhan

It's officially Spring now.
But it's raining like it's winter.
Cooling air and sprinkle of water...
Onto this Aussie Earth which always have water problem...
What more blessing can one ask?
In this blessed month Ramadhan al-Mubarak?

It's coming to an end, I'm so sad...
Yesterday I thought we still have 5 more days to go,
To grab and make full use of this Ramadhan,
It turned out to be just another 3 days left!
And excluding today, just 2 days left!
How fast can time fly?

Ramadhan slowly walks away from us...
Let us make full use of it by increasing our ibadah!
For next year, we may not live to see
Another month of blessed Ramadhan...

I'm having my first paper tomorrow... A bit nervous, hence this spur of a moment unplanned poem (which sounds funny to me) came to existance... Nevermind about the weirdness of the language, so long that you get my message! :)

Huhu... I'm thinking of changing my server to What do you think?


November 9, 2004


Hati ini menangis tatkala membaca berita ratusan lagi umat Islam dipijak dan dibunuh oleh kafir laknatullah! Timbul rasa marah, geram, dan benci melihatkan saudara-saudaraku dipijak, ditindas dan dibunuh... Adakah ini ujian buat umat Islam? Atau mungkin balasan yang hendak Allah tunjukkan akibat kita melalaikan suruhanNya dan tanggungjawab kita sebagai Khalifatullah di muka bumi? Apakah yang mampu kita lakukan? Dalam suasana di akhir Ramadhan, dan keseronokan umat Islam (contohnya Malaysia!) yang ghairah hendak meraikan Eid Mubarak, saudara kita berpuasa dalam debu peperangan, dan kita masih lagi boleh ketawa dalam gembira tatkala mereka berdepan dengan kematian?

"Dimana nilai kemanusiaan, sebagai hamba Tuhan? Hadirlah kedamaian, kami memerlukan" Lagu Kedamaian oleh Brothers.

Ayuh Bangun Semula oleh Alarm Me

Terpaksa merana
Jiwaku gelodak meronta
Derita insan teraniaya
Yang tak berdosa

Pilu melihat
Dirimu diruntun sengsara
Sayu kau hadapi
Ujian kehidupan

Suara itu semakin hilang
Ia tak lagi kedengaran
Cahaya harapan hanya khayalan
Di manakah keadilan

Ayuh bersama kita lenyapkan
Hapuskanlah segala penderitaan
Kembalikanlah kemanusiaan
Demi masa hadapan

Kita melangkah seiring bersama
Hentikan kezaliman di bumi tercinta
Janji teguh kan tersemat di jiwa
Yang benar pasti berjaya

Percaya tak akan
Tertutup mata hatiku
Jiwaku meronta
Kerna kebatilan yang nyata

Kubalut luka usah berduka
Menadah tangan pada Yang Kuasa
Gapai tanganku bersama yakin
Kita kan bangkit semula...

Fikirkanlah! Wallahualam bissawab

November 3, 2004

Kisah Semut

Kisah Semut.. [Di-copy and paste from Hakim's post in Friendster Bulletin Board. Ade jugak gunanya Bulletin Board ni... untuk menyebarkan peringatan kepada umat!]

Peringatan penulis: Cerita ni hanya rekaan semata-mata, tiada kena mengena dengan apa-apa yang wujud di alam ini sekalipun..cuma secebis kisah rekaan untuk peringatan kita semua...

Al kisah di satu bandar yang mewah tinggal seorang budak yg berasal dari keluarga yang berada. Rumahnya besar dan mempunyai tersangatlah banyak bilik.

Lalu budak ni pon mengambil satu bilik yang tidak digunakan dalam beribu-ribu bilik dirumahnya ni, lalu meletakkan dua ekor semut di dalamnya, dan berpesanlah budak itu kepada semut2 itu, katanya " tinggallah kamu di bilik ini dan ikutlah apa yg aku dah bagitau dan jauhilah larangan2 ku sehingga pintu bilik ini aku buka semula.
Lalu dikuncinya bilik itu rapat2. setiap tiga hari dia akan on lampu dalam bilik tu dan tiga hari laginya lampu akan di off, dan begitulah seterusnya.maka tinggallah dua ekor semut itu di dalam bilik itu...

Lalu beranak pinaklah dua ekor semut ini sehingga menjadi tersangat ramailah anaknya. Walaupon kedua ekor semut yang awal tadi pernah hidup di luar bilik, iaitu di dunia yang Maha Luas ini, tidaklah ia dapat menceritakan kesemua perihal dunia itu kepada anak2nya yang sangat ramai itu.

Lalu hiduplah semut2 yg ramai itu dengan pengetahuan yang dunia mereka hanyalah bilik itu, yg pada seekor semut, sangatlah besar bilik itu. Pada pandangan semut itu, apabila lampu di buka(tiga hari), adalah waktu siang dan apabila lampu ditutup (3 hari juge) adalah waktu malamnya.

Maka semut2 itu pon mencipta masa perkiraannya berdasarkan jangka waktu lampu2 itu di on dan di off.
Dan apabila semut2 itu menjumpa laptop didalam bilik itu, ramai di antara mereka akan berkata, ini terjadi dengan sendirinya, kerana tidaklah ia pernah melihat laptop itu dicipta oleh manusia. Walhal akan ada sekumpulan semut yang berfikir akan mengetahui yang tidak mungkin laptop ini akan terjadi dengan sendirinya...

Setelah hidup begitu lama, semut2 ini terasa perlunya panduan untuk hidup, lalu mereka mencipta satu ideologi dan pegangan yang boleh memandu hidup mereka. mereka menamakan ideologi ini sempena ketua-ketua puak mereka, pengasas ideologi mereka dan juga nama kaum semut yang memegang ideologi itu.
Dan mereka sangatlah berbangga kerana berjaya mencipta satu ideologi yang boleh mereka berpegang kepadanya.
Ketika ini hanya tinggal sedikit sahaja semut yang masih mengingati pesanan dua ekor semut yang mula2 tadi.

Lalu setelah sampai satu ketika, budak ini terasa yang semut2 ini telah terlalu rosak hidup mereka. Lalu ketika satu masa dimana semut2 lain tidak perasan, dia menculik seekor semut yang amat baik sifatnya ini, lalu dibawa keluar dari bilik itu.
Apabila melihat sendiri akan wujudnya dunia di luar bilik itu dan wujudnya budak itu serta wujudnya manusia, Keyakinan semut ini terhadap pesanan moyangnya bertambah kukuh. Ketika ini, semut ni sudah sedar akan kemampuan dan kehebatan manusia jika dibandingkan dengan semut2 di dalam bilik itu.
Lalu berpesanlah budak ini kepada semut itu, " Akulah tuan kamu dan tuan nenek moyang kamu, patuhilah arahanku dan jauhilah laranganku sehingga satu masa di mana aku akan membuka pintu ini. Ketika itu sapa yang mengikut arahan akan aku kurniakan nikmat yang tak pernah kamu merasainya (gula setinggi 8 meter), dan sapa yang melanggar arahan akan aku bakar dalam tempat barbeque."
Lalu diserahkan satu buku panduan kepada semut ini.
Didalam buku panduan ini terkandung arahan dan larangan serta perihal dunia luar dan kehebatan manusia2 yg hidup di dunia luar.
Semut ini telah berpeluang melihat gula setinggi 8 meter itu dan telahlah ia dapat melihat tempat barbeque tu. Maka yakinlah ia, kalau budak itu nak membakarnya, amatlah mudah ianya dapat dilakukan.

Lalu pulanglah semut ini kepada kaumnya. Sepulangnya kepada kaum semut itu, ia mulalah menyeru semut2 lain supaya mematuhi arahan2 budak tadi. Berceritalah semut ini perihal gula setinggi 8 meter dan perihal tempat barrbeque yang menanti mereka.
Tetapi bagi semut2 lain yang tidak dapat melihat benda2 itu, dikatakannya semut ini penipu, gila dan sebagainya.Mustahil kata mereka ada dunia selain dari bilik ini(kerana mereka tidak pernah melihatnya).
Hanya beberapa semut sahaja yang menuruti seruan semut tadi. Kerana keyakinan semut tadi terhadap dunia di luar bilik itu yang menantinya, dia pun beribadah siang dan malam, sentiasa melakukan kebaikan sebab dia tahu tuan dia ada letak kamera dalam bilik itu sentiasa memerhatikannya.

Dan berterusanlah dia menyeru semut2 lain kepada kebaikan dan melarang mereka berbuat kejahatan tetapi sedikit sekali mereka mendengarinya. Ada ketikanya, ketika seruannya tidak berhasil, menangislah semut ini kesendirian. Mase tu, budak tu dan rakan2 nya sedang melihat semut tadi melalui kamera tertutupnya.
Maka terasalah hibanya budak ini dan rakan2nya bagi pihak semut tadi dan turutlah menitis air mata mereka. Lalu budak ni mengirimkan sepucuk surat kecil, katanya " Janganlah kamu bersedih hati, sedangkan kamu tahu kamu dijalan yang benar, dan setiap sesuatu itu ada balasannya".
Mendengar janji tuannya ini, hilanglah hiba hati semut ini,, lalu teruslah ia berkerja menyeru semut2 yang lain ke arah kebenaran, tanpa sebarang keraguan dihatinya...

Sejam sebelum pintu bilik itu dibuka, semut tadi terus menyeru rakan2 nya supaya mengikut kata2 tuan tadi. tetapi tidaklah mereka mengikutinya.
Teruslah mereka menjalani hidup mereka yang sia2, menonton anime, bersembang2 tanpa mengetahui SEJAM lagi mereka akan dibakar didalam tempat barbeque tadi, sedangkan semut yang mereka anggap gila tadi akan dapat gula setinggi 8 meter.
Tidakkah sedih kita melihat semut2 ini? Sudah tentu dihati mereka, mereka bersangka mereka akan hidup selama-lamanya, sampai mereka mati.
Tapi kalau budak itu berkata dia nak buka bilik itu sejam lagi, siapa yang dapat menghalangnya? Kan bilik itu kepunyaannya?

1) Sebuah bilik itu adalah sangat insignificant bagi budak yg mempunyai beratus2 bilik dirumahnya.Jadi jika semut2 itu patuh atau tidak kepada arahannya, tidaklah ia rugi sesen pon. Bukankah budak itu terlalu amat kaya?

2) Sebagai manusia, kita akan berkata. Bodohlah semut2 yang mengatakan laptop itu wujud dengan sendirinya sedangkan kami (manusia) yang menciptanya. tidakkah begitu?

3) Apabila kita dibesarkan di dalam satu ruang, kita tidak akan dapat imagine ruang yang diluar ruang kita ini. Dapatkah semut2 tadi meng imagine taman tema sebesar sunway lagoon sedangkan seumur hidupnya, ia hanya bermalam dan siang di dalam bilik tadi sejak LAHIR???

4) Budak itu sentiasa memerhatikan semutnya melalu closed circuit camera yang dipasangnya. Maka beruntunglah semut yang mengikut arahannya. Dapatlah mereka makan gula sepuas puasnya. 8 meter. Byk Tuu... dan amat rugilah sapa yang berdegil.

5) Fikirkan. Siapa yang lebih bijak. Semut yang mengikut arahan tuannya OR semut2 yang mendustakan semut yang diculik tadi? Tidakkah bodoh memilih dibakar sedangkan mereka boleh berehat memakan gula setelah pintu itu dibuka nanti?

6) Bukankah sebab ceteknya ilmu semut tadi terhadap dunia luar bilik itu, adalah sebaiknya bagi mereka mengikuti semut yang diculik tadi dan mengkaji buku panduan itu habis-habisan? Tidakkah begitu?

Comel bukan cerita ini?
Cuba implikasikan cerita ini dengan kehidupan manusia.
Cuba bayangkan semut2 yang ramai itu adalah manusia di zaman ini yang agak2 ada lebih kurang 6 billion di atas bumi.
Cuba bayangkan bilik yang semut2 duduk itu adalah Al-Ardhu (bumi).
Cuba bayangkan ideologi2 semut sebagai ideologi2 manusia seperti 'capitalism', 'nationalism', 'darwinism' etc.
Cuba bayangkan, nikmat gula itu seperti syuga dan azab dibakar barbeque itu azab neraka.
Ah... Sungguh sama kehidupan manusia dengan kisah semut!

Hehe... Diri ini pun terasa bila disebutkan pasal anime... Nafsu anime masih lagi bertapak tebal dalam diri ini... "Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu yang lemah ini"

November 2, 2004

Iftar Pictures!

Alhamdulillah, I've downloaded the Iftars' pictures. Click the below links:

Iftar WAMSA:
Iftar WAMSA: 31 Oct 2004

Iftar Wapec, Msd, Jpa, Mara: 30 Oct 2004

Enjoy them! Ja!


Lirik Ababil oleh Raihan:

bagai gempa bumi yang menggegarkan
tentera bergajah Abrahah
ingin memusnahkan Kota Mekah
kerana dengki benci terhadap rumah Allah

tiada yang mampu untuk membantu
mukmin hanya berserah kepada yang empunya Kaabah
yakin dan berdoa Allah sendiri
yg akan menjaganya

Ababil kisah benar dari Al-Quran
Ababil bukan hanya kisah dongengan
Ababil satu bukti bantuan Tuhan
jika kita bertakwa dan bertawakal kepada Nya

burung-burung Ababil dikirim Allah
melemparkan batu yang panas, batu dari neraka
menghancurkan bala tentera Abrahah, tanda pembelaanya

Ababil kisah benar dari Al-Quran
Ababil bukan hanya kisah dongengan
Ababil satu bukti bantuan Tuhan
jika kita bertakwa dan bertawakal kepada Nya

persoalannya mengapakah kita di zaman ini
dipermainkan sesuka hati oleh musuh kita ?
TIADA pembelaan dari Tuhan untuk umat ini
kerna CINTA DUNIA DAN TAKUT MATI(al-wahan) x2
cubalah kita koreksi diri

Ababil kisah benar dari Al-Quran
Ababil bukan hanya kisah dongengan
Ababil satu bukti bantuan Tuhan
jika kita bertakwa dan bertawakal kepada Nya

senilagu & senikata: Abu Bakar. Hakcipta Raihan

I think the underlined text is the true message they wanted to convey.
And maybe that's true indeed, ne?

And just a point to ponder... this was what I thought when I was reading Berita Harian Online Konsert Mini Solo Hidangan Aidilfitri:
'Tatkala dunia meriah menyambut Ramadhan, dan dalam dua minggu lagi berebut-rebut hendakkan pahala puasa dan ibadahnya di bulan al-Mubarak ini sebelum ianya berakhir, suasana ramadhan di Malaysia di'meriahkan' dengan rakaman Variasi Fitri bagi 'meraikan' Aidil Fitri. Sebelum ini, mungkin aku rasa seronok, namun sekarang, terasa pelik apabila 'tradisi' Melayu Malaysia menyambut kedatangan Syawal dan permergian Ramadhan diteruskan dengan cara sebegini. Apakah iktibarnya? Adakah ia dapat menambahkan keimanan kita kepada Allah?'


Exam Timetable

Right, here's my exam timtable:

  • 12/11/04: 9 AM- Normal System 200
  • 15/11/04: 2 PM- Foundation of Clinical Practice
  • 18/11/01: 2.30 PM- Normal System 202

And on 21/11/04: 4.30 PM- Flight back to M'sia! ;) Will reach KL around 10 PM insyaAllah *happy*

I should really pay a visit to Wan, Zura and their son, Muiez, before I'm going back hey? Yeah... maybe I should do that...


November 1, 2004

Majlis Berbuka Puasa WAMSA / WAMSA's Iftar

[Malay Entry:]

Namanya pun bulan Ramadhan... Ramadhan al-Mubarak
Rezeki Allah itu ada di mana-mana...
Tapi makin bertambah di bulan rahmat ini
Di sebalik kehidupan di perantauan, jauh dari keluarga dan sahabat handai,
Buat masa ini, rasanya tak pernah kukeluh tiada makanan untuk bersahur atau berbuka

[Back to English:]

Ok, I felt a bit odd to write all-Malay entry... and sounded funny when I think in English and translated in Malay, it sounded very odd... pelik... tak kena
One committee member offered the iftar to be done in his house in Como,
A couple of other committee and volunteers helped to cook the food, which was good and reminded me much of home, I admit,
It was followed by Isya' and solat tarawikh later on

The host's family was here,
And thus, the female and male's side was seperated
I was relieved when I first stepped into the house
This might be something new here, but alhamdulillah and insyaAllah it's a good sign

The host's youngest sister's 9 years old
And truthfully everytime she smiled, it reminded me very much to my 2nd lil bro
How I missed home!

The pictures would be put up later on, insyaAllah, when I got them all from other people.

Now, I'm addicted to the nasyid 'Ababil' from Raihan's latest album, Allahu


October 31, 2004

Mounts Bay Resort...

It's confirmed.
We're moving out of Currie Hall next year and moving into Mounts Bay Resort (according to our student advisor)
It's about 5-10 minutes bus ride to UWA... and to go into the city, we only have to take the free CAT! Hah! How convinient is that? :p
Shila, Zura and Diana will be staying in one unit where as me and Alia will be sharing one unit. And since our unit would only have one bedroom, I guess we'll be sharing bedroom again, just like in foundation year. The rest were broken into 3 people into a unit with 2 bedrooms (one master bedroom for sharing, and another single room)
I haven't seen the units yet... And from what I heard, our units were seperated..
No more shouting each others name along the corridor for help!
In a way, I guess it would be good to know new neighbours and meet more people. In another way, well... we have to walk ' far' to see each other *how troublesome!* :p
I guess I'll be seeing the unit when I'm putting my stuff over there before I go back.

Wamsa's iftar is tonight at Nuaym's house in Como.
We'll go insyaAllah... I'll report back later on ;)

And I'm glad I've finished my web-based Integrated Behaviour System assignment!
Now I can concentrate on Normal System 200 and 202!


October 30, 2004

Second Iftar

There weren't many people on the sister's side this time.
I guess many people had other invitation or have other plans last night.
We ourselves (the girls in Currie) had an invitation to break the fast at Hani's house, along with the other female Wamsa's member. We had to decline that one.
Apart from it being a bit far away, the other reason was because I already put down my name down for MSA Iftar and this might be the last time I meet the other Muslim girls in UWA this sem. After this the SWOT Vac starts and everyone will be busy with exams.
Nevertheles, last night was beautiful!
I just love the fact that many different races and nationalities sitting together under one roof in the name of Islam. There's no discrimination and splitting of in Islam. We're all the same, no matter what colour our skin and eyes are. This is the truth behind the propaganda that tried to split the Muslims.
The thinking of nationalisme, rasicm, secular way of doing things is all the propaganda to think we're all at different levels, some are better than others when in fact that's not true. Who are we to jugde other people when Allah has made all of us from the same source?
And it doesn't matter if you're a Syiah or a Sunni (Sunnah Wal-Jamaah). I see no problem with different mazhab. In the end, all of us look back on Al-Quran and Sunnah as our guidance. In the end, we're all going back to him.
Like a wise man I met before said, the key is to unite. The problem with Muslims these days is we look upon our differences much more than we look at our similarities.
Just because I speak different mother tongue than you, doesn't mean I'm better than you, doesn't mean I believe differently from you, ne?

October 26, 2004


I talked to a few people who are obviously older than me.
And there were a lot of wisdom in our conversations.

I talked to my mom about life and I realized a few things about An-Naas, friendship and myself.
I updated myself to a sister who cares about me, and I realized that there exists people who just know you, but genuinely care for you because of one fact- Islam.
I talked to a friend who who'll be finishing her Phd at the end of this year and unbeknown to me before, somehow, she has a lot of faith in my abilities... provided I work hard enough *heh*
And these people knocked some senses into my thick skull and I just realized that I was being irrational on certain subjects.
I can change myself, I realized...
And all thanks to these people, who some might know me too well, while some might just barely know me to help and somehow become pillar of my strength.
Who would have guess that the unexpected people could be your strength, even if it's only for that moment?
I constantly pray that I'm always given nur hidayah so that I won't stray away from my path.
Alhamdulillah, Allah granted my wish...
And that's the imporatance in staying together in jemaah... I've been hearing this phrase even up till now since I first came to Perth...
Firstly from my mom, then from some other elders, then from my own friends and 'comrades'...
My fellow 'family', uhibbuki fillah!

Oh... to view pictures from the spontaneous breaking fast open house in Maria's place, click the link below->
Buka puasa di Rumah Maria

Or you can just go through the link at the navigator side... Pictures of Memories one. Well, jazakallah to Maria for the asam pedas that I was craving for! It was a lovely night!


October 23, 2004


MSA UWA had an iftar last night. Surprisingly it collided with the Indonesian community's iftar too! And there were like more than 100 people overall! But alhamdulillah it was rather good to see so many people gathering up to break the fast then prayed together. It was such a lovely sight, unfortunately I don't have any pictures to prove it *sigh*

And I got to meet so many people I haven't been meeting for quite a while, namely Dini, Kak Murni, Yatie, Dana, Nadia, Nabilah, Nooshin etc. And Alya, Shu and I were just amusing ourselves with those cute lil kids! There was one almost 2 years old girl who mimicked me when I made faces to her! *lol* And I had a good time chatting with Alya and Shu too!

And at last... my presentation ended... and all the assignments and report had been handed in... Now the only things left are the Integrated Systems assignment which I'm determine to finish up before the due date and also the exams... Huhuhu... I'm so nervous for the exams now...

Oh... Shaza called me! Waah!! I missed her lots! And I felt like taking a flight to Lancaster now! Then Hidayah and Shikeen called my mobile! Then since both were in Hidayah's house, I called them back! What a bliss! To get phone calls from people that you know the longest and people whom you are so close too! I keep on telling myself that if in Kerteh, I have Shaza and Faizah, in KL, I have Shikeen and Hidayah!

Mmm... and I'm kinda addicted to Full Metal Alchemist now *glare to those who made me watching it*


October 19, 2004

Whale Watching!

Whale is just a simply amazing animal. Actually, now in my head I'm thinking of a shark, due to the documentary Alia and I watched the other night *lol* Anyway, on the first day of fasting, I followed Nura, Lian, Mandy and Cheya (not too sure how to spell her name, sorry) to Frementle's Oceanic Cruise to take a look at one of the most wonderful creation on Earth. Unfortunately, no pictures available due to their quick actions of resurfacing and diving again... though I cought one video which last for about what...15 seconds? Something like that.
Although the whales didn't resurfaced much, nor did they jumped around and splashing the water, it was quite a sightful experience... Once they came a bit close... like 5 meters away, and it was just spectacular! Subhanallah... mammals of the sea are just amazing!

Cheya and Lian

Nura and Mandy

Mandy, Me, Cheya and Lian

Tarawikh is done in UWA Musalla every night... Ahh.. what blissful nights those are... You'll never find more peaceful nights I think. It's one of those moments to catch up with friends that you haven't seen in ages too I might say!

At times like this, I sort of miss home... huhuhu... home cooking food for sahur and berbuka... nevermind, Maria's gonna cook for us :p And I should go back continuing my studies now...


October 16, 2004

Selamat Datang Ramadhan!

Hehe... Lambat sahut seruan Pakdi supaya letak kempen Sambut Ramadhan dlm blog. Truthfully, tak de masa nak buat banner tu pun sebenarnya.

Alhamdulillah, pagi tadi dapatlah kami di Currie Hall bersahur di John Bartlett room pukul 3-4 pagi... Subuh di sini around 4.12 a.m. Berbanding dengan M'sia dan Mekah, kami mula berpuasa hari ini (Sabtu). Masa tarawikh malam tadi, alhamdulillah, ramai jugak yg datang... I was a bit shock ;)

Setakat ini sahaja berita jam 9 pagi... Nak sambung write up of Essay on Postnatal Depression... huhu... hantar on Monday, tapi tak siap lagi :(

October 15, 2004

Dah ok sket

Alhamdulillah... demam dah surut.
But still batuk and selsema...
At least dah tak de 24-hours headache...
Heh.. using my med knowledge, I checked my tonsils on the first few days of me getting the fever.
It was sure inflammed...
Yup, a viral attack that was...
And no, paracetamol didn't work either...
And sleeping for 24 hours was quite an experience too :D

October 8, 2004

Last GP Visit

I gave Branden Ikhwan's digicam to record today's lectures since I couldn't make it.
I had my last GP visit today. It saddened me, but... life goes on.
And I had a very interesting start today..
I hopped onto the bus and guess what? The ride was free!
And the bus was different too that I almost missed it!
It was an EcoBus! Using steam only! <- Actually it's using hidrogen. They were on test run!
Impresseive huh?
I guess with the petrol prices increasing, people want to find alternatives for it.
And you could see the steam coming out of it at the back of the bus!
It was awesome.
I got my musculoskeletal case today too.. which was good! :)
And for the first time in 2 years I've been with my GP, a child came in as a patient!
I was so happy! And a cute one too! *kawaii!!*
With the first patient today, I had to do the abdominal examination on my own...
Was a bit scared.. and a bit awkward... but I guess there will always a first time to start everything alone... It wasn't too bad!
Yesterday was also my last visit.
It didn't take that long...
I was a bit sad I had to say goodbye..
Oh well...
Oh yeah! I got my mid-sem exam paper back!
I was a bit late for the 12 o'clock lecture because I was on my way back from the practice when it started...
Met Fan in the bus. He was also a bit late because he was doing his last GP Visit.
Alhamdulillah I passed...
I'm contend enough with my marks for the first time in 2 years although if I studied harder, I might have gotten higher!
Oh.. and I've recovered a bit from my 'depressive' state...
I do regret a bit for deleting TWM...
I guess it's time to move forward and open up a new chapter then ;)


October 7, 2004

Mawar Dalam Gelas Kaca

I've been wanting to write this since the other day. It's sort of a reminder for all of us, including myself. Correct me if I'm wrong yeah? So here it goes

Mawar Di Dalam Gelas Kaca

Allah s.w.t. telah meletakkan wanita di atas tempat yang tinggi. Tapi wanita sendiri tidak menyedari akan hakikat ini. Tidak pernahkah anda terasa bahawa apabila seseorang wanita itu disuruh menutup aurat, secara tidak langsung Allah menjaga, mem-‘protect’ wanita itu dari pandangan rakus insan yang bernama lelaki. Tidak pernahkah anda terasa, apabila ikhwah disuruh menjaga pandangannya daripada memandang wanita, wanita itu seolah-olah begitu suci dan indah, sehingga lelaki sendiri tidak layak memandangnya? Syariatnya, memang Allah menyuruh menundukkan pandangan demi mengelak dari zina, tapi secara tidak langsung, arahan itu jugak meletakkan wanita di tangga yang amat tinggi.

Al-Quran telah dijadikan sebagai panduan dan petunjuk untuk umat Muhammad. Namun, kaum muslim kini hanya membaca Al-Quran setakat memenuhi syarat bahawa dia telah membaca Al-Quran. Seorang non-Muslim pernah bertanyakan kepada saya tentang kandungan dan isi Al-Quran. Merah padam rasanya muka ini kerana tidak mengetahui langsung akan isi kandungan kitab sendiri sedangkan lelaki tadi boleh meng-‘quote’ akan isi Bible, malah tahu serba sedikit akan isi-isi al-Quran kerana dia mengambil inisiatif untuk membaca ‘translation’nya. A muslim, born muslim, always takes things for granted!

Surah An-Nur ayat 30: “Katakanlah kepada orang lelaki yang beriman: “Hendaklah mereka menahan pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, yang demikian itu adalah lebih suci bagi mereka, sesungguhnya Allah Maha mengetahui apa yang mereka buat””. Nah, mengapa perlu mempersoalkan mengapa lelaki harus tunduk apabila bertembung dengan wanita. Arahan Allah yang ‘direct’ tidak perlu dipersoalkan. Siapa kita untuk mempersoalkan hukum Allah, sedangkan Allah-lah yang mencipta dan menjadikan kita dan alam ini?
Pernahkah kita (wanita) terfikir bahawa, apabila kita meminta kaum lelaki memandang ke arah kita dan melihat kita, sedangkan arahan Allah jelas menyuruh ikhwah menundukkan pandangan mereka, maka kaum wanita sendirilah yang meletakkan diri mereka ditangga yang paling bawah.

Surah An-Nur ayat 31: “Katakanlah kepada kaum wanita beriman: “Hendaklah mereka menahan pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya, dan janganlah mereka menampakkan perhiasannya, kecuali benda yang (diizinkan) nampak daripadanya. Dan hendaklah mereka menutupkan jilbab ke dadanya…. Dan janganlah mereka memukulkan kakinya agar diketahui perhiasan yang mereka sembunyikan…” Bukan sahaja lelaki disuruh menjaga pandangan mereka, bahkan wanita sendiri mesti menjaga pandangan mereka. Sebenarnya, bukan sahaja dari sudut fizikal harus wanita itu menjaga diri dan pandangannya, bahkan dari sudut kelakuan dan tingkah laku juga perlu dijaga. Semua orang, baik Muslim atau non muslim sendiri tahu membandingkan antara wanita yang menjaga tingkah lakunya, yang bercakap dengan sopan lebih baik daripada mereka yang menghabiskan masa di tempat-tempat yang tidak senonoh. Inilah sifat malu yang dianjurkan dalam Islam.

(Daripada Mihwar, Bil 17- Januari 2004) Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w. “Malu dan iman itu saling bergandingan. Jika satu yang meninggi, maka satu lagi juga turut meninggi.”
“Apabila Allah hendak menjatuhkan seseorang hamba, Allah tarik darinya sifat malu. Apabila sifat malu sudah ditarik, maka dia tidak akan menerima selain kemurkaan Allah. Apabila kemurkaan Allah yang diterima, maka bererti sifat amanah telah ditarik oleh Allah. Apabila sifat amanah telah ditarik oleh Allah, maka dia menjadi seorang pengkhianat, bermakna telah ditarik daripadanya sifat rahmat. Apabila ditarik daripadanya sifat rahmat, maka dia tidak akan jumpa melainkan syaitan yang direjam dan dilaknati. Apabila dia tidak jumpa melainkan yang direjam dan dilaknati, bermakna ikatan Islam telah ditarik daripadanya (HR Ibnu Majah)
Rasulullah s.a.w : “Kalau tidak ada perasaan malu, maka buatlah apa yang anda ingini.” “Malu itu sebahagian daripada iman”.

Bagaimanakah tingkah laku seseorang yang telah hilang sifat malunya? Lihatlah keadaan sekeliling kita, setiap sudut yang kita pusing, setiap kali itulah kita nampak manusia yang telah hilang sifat malunya. Buka sahaja television (guna controller) jika anda malas untuk pusing :p
Rasulullah s.a.w. sendiri adalah seorang yang amat pemalu. Dari Abi Said al-Khudri r.a.: “Rasulullah s.a.w. adalah peribadi yang sangat pemalu melebihi malu seorang dara di dalam tirainya, apabila melihat sesuatu yang dibencinya maka kami tahu dari air mukanya” (Daripada Mihwar, Bil 17- Januari 2004) Bukankah kita disuruh mencontohi akhlak Rasulullah?

Sejak dari kecil, kita telah didedahkan dengan contoh-contoh dan suasana yang begitu terpesong daripada Islam. Hari ini, pemuda pemudi yang bertepuk tampar di khalayak ramai sudah menjadi satu pemandangan yang biasa dilihat di mana-mana sahaja. Hari ini, lelaki dan wanita yang berdua-duaan berada di setiap pelosok dunia. Etika kerja dan social yang betul dan normal ialah apabila bercakap (termasuk di antara lelaki dan wanita) memandang muka dan mata. Minda kita ditanam dengan suasana ‘it’s ok for men and women to be together, it’s part of life and social skills’.

Hakikatnya, kita harus sedar dan faham bahawa Islam bukanlah agama sahaja. Islam meliputi setiap aspek kehidupan, termasuk cara pergaulan dan bersosial. Islam tidak pernah melarang perbualan antara lelaki dan wanita sekiranya ada urusan yang tidak dapat dielakkan. Maka, basic-nya di sini, kita harus menerima Islam itu secara menyeluruh. Apabila kita telah menerima hakikat bahawa Islam itu ad-deen, satu cara hidup, maka kita tidak akan mempersoalkan hukum-hukum Allah dan kita tidak akan memandang cara pergaulan yang dianjurkan oelh Islam sebagai sesuatu yang pelik berbanding dengan apa yang telah selalu ditanam dalam minda kita dan dengan apa yang kita selalu lihat di keadaan sekeliling kita.

Wallahualam bissawab.

mood: anxious with myself


Salaam... The article that I promised. If there's any confusion or wrong info, pls tell me, I'll amend it insyaAllah...

Darwinism/Darwinisme. Satu teori yang diperakui oleh ramai ahli sains, walaupun ianya cuma satu teori, seolah-olah ianya satu 'law' atau undang-undang alam. Apa yang dibawa oleh Darwin? Jawapannya ialah 'Evolutonary Theory' dan konsep 'Survival of the Fittest'. Teori Evolusi menyatakan bahawa manusia hari ini adalah hasil evolusi dan akan terus ‘evolve’ ke arah yang lebih baik. ‘Survival of the Fittest’ menyatakan hidupan (ambil manusia dalam konteks ini) yang tidak mempunyai gene atau survival yg baik akan pupus. Kebanyakan teori ‘biological science’ hari ini, termasuk perubatan sendiri berasaskan kepada (rely really heavily on) teori evolusi.
Kita mungkin tidak sedar bahawa secara senyap2 kita dipaksa untuk mengakui idea2 ini. I myself wouldn’t have realized it, if I didn’t take Anthropology and medicine.
Sebenarnya banyak 'consequences' jika kita mengakui idea2 Darwinism. Yang paling penting, secara tidak kita sedari, akidah kita dipesongkan.

I was once asked about 5 pillars and 6 believes of Islam by my non-Muslim friend. Rukun Iman dan Rukun Islam; kita diajar tanpa menghayati apa sebenarnya yang terkandung dalam ‘pillars’ dan ‘believes’ ini. Rukun Iman yang terakhir menyatakan Kepercayaan Kepada Qada’ dan Qadar. Apa itu Qada’ dan Qadar? Nasib/'Fate'? Atau mungkin lebih dari itu? Ada benda2 yang telah Allah jadikan yg telah ditetapkan dan yang tidak perlu kita persoalkan seperti ajal, maut, syurga dan neraka. Namun, ada perkara2 yang tidak ditetapkan seperti nasib, yang mana kita perlu berusaha; seperti yg selalu disebut orang, malah di dalam Al-Quran itu sendiri menyatakan, Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu melainkan manusia berusaha untuk mengubahnya. Itu adalah 'explanation' yg standard utk rukun Iman yg ke-enam.

Bagaimana pula dengan kejadian manusia dan alam? Jelas sekali Rukun Iman itu sendiri menonjol atau ‘stand out alone’ bagi membangkang idea2 Darwinism. Kepercayaan Kepada Qada’ dan Qadar menyatakan kerelaan dan kepercayaan kita bahawa Allah-lah yang mencipta manusia, mencipta flora dan fauna serta sekalian alam ini. Kupetik sedikit terjemahan dari Muqaddimah Tafsir Fizilalill-Quran: “Di bawah bayangan al-Quran juga, aku (pengarang) dapat mempelajari bahawa di dalam alam wujud ini, tiada ruang bagi kebetulan yang membuta-tuli dan bagi kejadian-kejadian luar dugaan yang mendadak. Kerana: ‘Sesungguhnya Kami ciptakan segala sesuatu itu dengan ukuran yang rapi.’ Surah Al-Qamar ayat 49 (54:49)”. Ayat ini jelas mematikan teori yang menyatakan bahawa manusia itu berubah dari species monyet kepada apa yang kita nampak sekarang. Allah menjadikan manusia dengan ukuran dan ciptaan yang amat rapi dan sempurna. Seringkali aku terdengar professor2ku menyatakan kekaguman mereka terhadap ciptaan anggota tubuh badan manusia yang amat unik dan sungguh ‘organized’. Seringkali aku terdengar mereka memuji bahawa sungguh ‘pandai’ organisasi dalam badan ‘mengatur’ sistem mereka supaya badan dapat berfungsi dengan sempurna dan ‘efficient’! Subhanallah, betapa sempurnanya dan betapa rapinya ukuran dan ciptaan yang Allah jadikan. Apakah sistem ini dapat terbentuk dengan sendirinya? Apakah sistem ini mempunya fikiran dan otak untuk berfikir? Tentu tidak sama sekali!

Aku pasti semua orang diajar mengenai Sifat 20 Allah bukan? Kita semua tahu bahawa antara sifat2 Allah ialah wujud dan berkuasa. Wujud bererti telah ada selama-lamanya, maka kita, makhluk ini adalah benda yang baharu. Allah sebagai pencipta berkuasa menciptakan kita dan alam ini, maka kita sebagai makhluk yang baharu amat lemah dan tidak berkuasa bukan? Idea2 Darwinism amat bertentangan dengan sifat2 Allah, kerana apa yang Darwin cuba bawa ialah, kita, manusia itu sendiri BERKUASA mengubah diri kita ke satu kejadian yang lebih baik. Secara tidak langsung, kita juga mengatakan bahawa Allah tidak pandai kerana menjadikan keadaan kita yang tidak sempurna sehinggakan kita terpaksa meng-'evolve' diri kita.
Maka dalam konteks ini, secara tidak langsung, propaganda Darwinism memesongkan akidah kita serta mengajar kita untuk tidak percaya kepada Al-Quran dan meragui Allah sendiri.

Semasa di PMD, ada 4 persoalan idea2 Darwinisme yang dibangkitkan:
- Mengapa manusia berjalan menggunakan 2 kaki sedangkan species beruk menggunakan 4 kaki?
- Mengapa manusia tidak mempunya banyak bulu seperti species beruk?
- Mengapa otak manusia lebih besar daripada species beruk?
- Persoalan manusia boleh bercakap sedangkan species beruk tidak boleh bercakap.

Namun, segala persoalan yg dibangkitkan ini, sebenarnya ada jawapannya dari perspektif ahli-ahli pro-Darwinisme.
Pertama, manusia berevolusi dari 4 kaki kepada dua kaki atas dasar berjalan 2 kaki lebih efficient daripada menggunakan 4 kaki. All because of locomotion reason, bipedal is more efficient. Sebagai ‘trade-off’nya, manusia menghadapi dilemma obstetrik, di mana proses melahirkan anak tidak semudah species beruk.
Persoalan kedua mengenai bulu, manusia berevolusi mempunya sedikit bulu seperti sekarang adalah kerana perbahan cuaca, yakni, daripada sejuk ke panas, seperti yg kita alami sekarang.
Persoalan mengenai otak pula membawa kita kepada sejarah ‘species’ manusia itu sendiri. Salah satu species manusia yg telah pupus kini, iaitu homo ergaster terbahagi kepada dua, iaitu early homo ergaster dan late homo ergaster. Satu perbezaan besar yang dapat dilihat ialah saiz otak mereka. Late homo ergaster mempunya saiz otak yang lebih besar, hampir kepada saiz otak manusia, berbanding dengan saiz otak early homo ergaster. Dan ruang masa diantara 2 homo ergaster ini, wujudlah satu lagi species homo, iaitu homo neanderthalensis, di mana dalam banyak2 speceis homo, otak merekalah yang paling besar. Namun mereka sudah pupus, dan salah satu sebabnya ialah otak mereka yg teramat besar dan ini menyebabkan 'survival ability' mereka jatuh kerana otak merupakan organ yg amat 'mahal' dan memerlukan 'high maintenance', maka otak yg terlalu besar tidak sesuai untuk manusia meneruskan kehidupan. Inilah satu contoh konsep 'Survival of the fittest' yg cuba digembar-gemburkan, sekiranya jika species itu tidak mempunyai kriteria yg membolehkan mereka ‘survive’ untuk hidup, mereka akan mati. Maka kita adalah golongan species yang masih lagi survive kerana mempunya saiz otak yang optimum.
Persoalan manusia boleh bercakap pula membawa kita berfikir kembali, apakah beruk itu tidak boleh berkata2? Bukankah mereka ada bahasa mereka sendiri yang kita tidak boleh fahami?
Inilah antara putaran yg boleh dijadikan alasan mereka untuk menolak pegangan kita yg tidak percayakan kepada Darwinisme.

But then again, nothing is perfect. I found one flaw and question that I don’t think even they have an answer. We were tought that the purpose of living is to reproduce and to leave our genes to the next generation. All the theories and idea that I learned pointing to one sole purpose, that we are here to reproduce and leave our genes behind. And I asked one of my professors one day. ‘But why? Why do we have to reproduce and why do we have to leave our genes behind? What’s the purpose of leaving our DNA to the next generation?’ And what was the answer that I was given?

‘We just do’

Apa pula tujuan kehidupan manusia itu dijadikan? “Dan tidak Aku jadikan manusia dan jin itu melainkan supaya beribadat kepadaKu” Surah AdzDzaariyaat ayat 56 (51:56). Islam jua yang mempunyai jawapan kepada segala-galanya. Bak kata seorang ahli keluarga rakanku, Islam itulah penawar kepada segala penyakit, dan Islam itulah jawapan kepada segala peperangan dan kepincangan dunia yang kita hadapi kini. Maka mengapakah kita masih lagi meragui Islam dan Allah itu sendiri. Bukalah mata dan minda, sedarlah bahawa tujuan golongan kufar itu adalah untuk memesongkan akidah kita, sama ada secara terang-terangan atau secara sembunyi.

Wallahualam bissawab

mood: content with the food I just ate... Alhamdulillah!