She looks at the screen
She's had conversations with different people from a different group of people- her friends, her colleagues, her superiors, her seniors, her family... and every time, with a heavy heart she whispered, "but I want to go and achieve my dreams first- the small ones and perhaps if time permits, the bigger ones, before I commit myself to whatever commitment down in the future"
She's aware and realized that after months of juggling and struggling with one task after the other and handling new responsibilities, she's discovered a new side of her that she didn't even know existed. And that has sort of opened another window of opportunities in her career pathway that she can think about in the future.
"Only that...."
"Only that I want to go and do what I've been wanting to do.... things that I have put on hold for the past 4 years since I entered into this programme," she said out loud.
It's the basis and foundation of why she chose and ended up in this career pathway.
It's the essence that she wanted to embody into her existence in the world.
It's a legacy she wanted to leave her name with.
She doesn't know how long that will take.
And she's not sure if she would even like it enough to keep on doing it.
Perhaps she'll find that with time it's not as relevant as how she thought it would be.
Perhaps with time, she no longer has any energy and enthusiasm for it.
But before she decides on that, she wants to at least dive into it, freely doing it at her own pace, and just go crazy with it until she decides to stop or slow down.
"That's the main reason I read medicine, work in health care line and progress into this programme anyway. The whole purpose of this whole thing since I was 15-16 years old is to achieve these goals. Let me have a taste of it, to see if it's as sweet as I thought it will be...
... then we can talk on what's next.
Because what's next for me, is doing it- achieving my long-term goals"
Because perhaps she'll fall in love with it, so much so that she doesn't want to do anything else.
#IBelieveInAchievingMyDreams
