Second posting, 5 months in total
There are times where I'm still scared of doing things
There are times where I still don't feel confident
There are times where I'm still unsure of what to do
Sometimes I feel that time flies too fast
But sometimes it feels so slow
There are days where it's so nerve-wrecking
There are sleepless night; and peaceful on-calls
There are happy days when you see your patients get better
Or grim days when you noticed they deteriorate
Or came too late with complications...
There are days where it's okay
But there are days so busy and overwhelming, we can't even sit
I always say this- it's 'underrated', this being a 'district' hospital
My first experience with patient collapsed during on-call, I panicked
My first patient that was 'DNR'-ed, I almost cried
And when I was really confused and needed to talk to someone, Mom isn't around
Without realizing it, I was sobbing; outside it was raining heavily
This job, I knew I made my choice years ago
I'm still slowly learning, building up my confidence, trying to instill right practices
It is tiring and challenging- physically and mentally
I often miss my family, hang-out buddies, holding the camera, watching plays, enjoying coffee,
And most of the time it made me homesick, being 4 hours away from home
Often, I ended up questioning myself if this is what I really want
But one thing for sure,
So far not a day passes by that,
I pray so that patients get well without any complications,
That we are guided so that we manage the patients as best as we can
This is still baby-steps I'm taking...
[Scenery] Ashita no Kioku~
Turn the page, new story is being written now;
What's written today, is tomorrow's memory...
Previously 'Travel With Me' (TWM); this used to be a mean of communication with my Mom while I was in Perth, now it's mainly life reflection, contemplation, and my life journey archive; with some reviews here and there. Like they said, there's more beneath the surface.
March 9, 2012
January 29, 2012
always
missing peaceful & relaxing moment like this
missing the good old, happy days
missing my family & friends
can't turn back the time
but thanks to treasure memories to cherish...
thankful to be alive today
and learn many new things every day
pray that in every single thing done
is blessed with barakah,
and will at least give some points
for hereafter, insyaAllah...
January 24, 2012
Dear Sisters...
Dear young adult women & pretty teenage girls,
Life is so precious. You have to have self-respect and self-value. Don’t throw your life away with one single mindless decision or in the name of having ‘fun’ or ‘being in love’... Having a child isn’t like buying cloth or a pair of shoes. It means you have to feed two mouths and you are responsible for making sure the child grows up to be a person.
Please think about your future AND the future of life that you are going to create. Feeling scared or even guilty after what is done won’t change things unless you change for the better...
I’ve seen too many cases of unbooked and unscreened with single marital status in such a short time that it scared ME of what is becoming of our future generation.
My heart bled for the tiny beings who know nothing at this point.
My heart cried for what will become of their future; will they be angry, depressed, or lead a successful life? Will they blame you? Will they blame themselves? Will they blame God?
So please, dear intelligent friends, you are smart, you have self-value...
Please do think about your future... Not just the future in this world, but the future in the hereafter as well...
Life is so precious. You have to have self-respect and self-value. Don’t throw your life away with one single mindless decision or in the name of having ‘fun’ or ‘being in love’... Having a child isn’t like buying cloth or a pair of shoes. It means you have to feed two mouths and you are responsible for making sure the child grows up to be a person.
Please think about your future AND the future of life that you are going to create. Feeling scared or even guilty after what is done won’t change things unless you change for the better...
I’ve seen too many cases of unbooked and unscreened with single marital status in such a short time that it scared ME of what is becoming of our future generation.
My heart bled for the tiny beings who know nothing at this point.
My heart cried for what will become of their future; will they be angry, depressed, or lead a successful life? Will they blame you? Will they blame themselves? Will they blame God?
So please, dear intelligent friends, you are smart, you have self-value...
Please do think about your future... Not just the future in this world, but the future in the hereafter as well...
December 22, 2011
7-Years Post Tsunami [Part 4]
The team and medical check up (Part 2)
Coming back from meeting the whole batch, I'm homesick now =(
December 19, 2011
CUCMS 2nd Convocation
Frontiers, Congratulations!
It's good to see familiar faces again.
From the first day, everyone has been updating each other on their lives.
From the first day, everyone has been updating each other on their lives.
At time like this, I'm pretty sure that most, if not everyone would want time to freeze.
Reality is, time waits for no man. It'll tick away whether we like it or not.
We still have to move on.
May next time we meet, we'll be better persons with more experiences to share.
May next time we meet, it'll be full of barakah.
May next time we meet, it's to give back.
All the best, Frontiers!
September 6, 2011
August 14, 2011
7-Years Post Tsunami [Part 1]
Last month we had the chance to organize the last batch's community work- medical check up and sunathon.
In Acheh, Indonesia.
7 years after tsunami.
I'd let the pictures speak for themselves...
In Acheh, Indonesia.
7 years after tsunami.
I'd let the pictures speak for themselves...
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