Letting Go

I'm having issue with... letting go *headdesk*
If someone has a cure, or some solutions/suggestions, let me know
I'll be thankful...

One Week Plus

A little more than a week... then we're gonna have one month break before EBM class starts and Elective posting marks our 4th Year in August...

And within this a little more than a week, there are still reports and presentations to be prepared... on weekdays, I'm still stuck in Sepang... Things to do before break starts:
- help the specialists move
- revise because...
- EXAMS coming!
- Yegies' Final Outing ? -> Cameron?
- Engagement party
- Batch Dinner at D'Tasik
- Cousin's Reception

I want to go (back) to Kuala Terengganu since there would be more un-packing to be done (and because I missed the sea? XD) but mom wants us to clear up the boxes in KL first...

On the other note, was the launching of Health Intervention Programme a success last Sunday? I don't know... but somehow, unexpectedly, our programme (and picture) came up on Monday's Sinar paper (even on the coloumn of 41% too!) XD

Pictures? Maybe later when I'm free...

Today's Memory

Stress will either make me run away from that place, write or doing something impromptu..
.
In this case, I vented out by drawing using something that I've never used before- chalk pastel :P (The flower comes from a PV- Ashita no Kioku)



And this is my new toy chalk pastel XDD I used them on the mounting board (the black board)

Child-like

Every adult has child-like and childish character
Seriously
No matter how hard they try to pretend not to
It's there
Seriously

I want to write... I want to continue Escape... a sequal, or make it an ongoing one...
I think the stress in PH made me feel like writing
It has always been like that... stress => writing
I just don't have time to spend the entire night writing!

I want to go home. Sunday is HIP but I think I'll go home tonight- haven't been back for 3 weeks and I'm homesick already
Even for one night
(and borrow my bro's D60 for the programme)

On the side-note, we're moving to Kuala Terengganu! *Yay!*

Lunch @ Bayou

This entry is inspired by Arashi no Shukudai-kun's food segment (I think the food in there actually pushed me to do this)[Until there's an official page of where I can report my own food 'shukudai', I'll do it here]
Last Friday, Amal and I decided to try the food in Bayou (we've been eying the Mushroom Fettuccine for quite a while)
I'm not sure where else they have Bayou... but the one in Alamanda is love ^^


Somehow, the veggies of the day had some parts burnt a bit... this one is saute and sprinkled with salt and pepper


Left: Mushroom Fettuccine... A bit dry, but there are a lot of mushroom and that itself made us happy.
Right: Dessert- Poached Peach... Sorbet-like dessert with vanilla ice-cream. The ice-cream actually soothes the acidic taste of the peach... somehow, if that makes sense


And what can I do without lovely coffee?? XDD

Smile

First episode of Smile shocked me...
I found myself looking forward to it now more so compared to The Quiz Show
(it was the other way round just a few weeks ago)

And I like the background music in Smile too.

Maybe I'm not in the mood of watching mysterious/thriller at the moment?

Wave

It came, slowly building in...
Reached the highest peak at one point and the bubble was burst with happiness
A few moments later, after huge sparkle spreading amidst the darkness like 'hanabi' on the dark night sky
... everything was lost...

Now it's empty...
Like wave crashing down, smashing the white sand away,
Disrupting the harmony of the once peaceful pattern...

Now... confusion set in...
Behind the mask was hurt... Penetrated deep,
Betrayed
Like it was not worth it
Especially when the feeling is like being left out

To leave or not to leave?
To open door and and give in to being soft-hearted?
There's a small voice, asking for a second chance
But the hurt that remains is still quite painful

Confused...
That's how it feels now~

To write again

I guess I've been on hiatus for too long
I missed writing
Being in Sepang, it's almost feel like isolation... except, I have another 14 people with me
Maybe Public Health is just not an area of medicine for me...

Sleeping at 3 a.m. almost everyday?
Isn't that normal now?
A friend asked how do I function... truthfully, I don't know... :P

In any way, I'll probably start writing here again...
It will probably sound different this time around... I think
And I'm thinking of revamping the whole layout too... or maybe that can wait... till I can find some time to really sit down and concentrate on this. At the moment, I have mountains of work, pending... and it's giving me headache already...

The new title? It's aspired from (or more like direct translation of) 'Ashita no Kioku'
I like it... So I think I'll stick with that for a while...
(But I hate the current banner... I'm changing that later on too)

Tadaima~

“Please do not stop making doa for us”

I haven't been writing in here due to the hectic schedule of Paediatrics. Alhamdulillah we now have finished one more posting and next to come is Obstetric and Gynaecology.

I sat in front of my laptop,
Reading the experience of one of the doctors who was able to get into Gaza,
With 'We Will Not Go Down' playing in the background,
I sobbed like a child...

" Everytime we asked “what can we do for you?" The answer would be;
"Please do not stop making doa for us." "

I thought I'd share that piece from his experience...

One week break

Surgery's over.
Now we're having a week's break before the 3rd posting begins. For me it'll be Paediatric.

Surgery's tiring. Really it was. Well, for me anyway. But I think I learned a lot from it- from the simple, trivial (or so we thought) stuff, to the complicated things.
At times, during rounds, I felt that I could do the housemen's job... we even compared notes during one of the night rounds and those kind of feelings left deep impression in me. Surgery taught me to be sensitive and observant. It reminded me that basic anatomy, physiology and pathology are important and I kept on wondering how I could convey this message to the juniors?

Weekends during Surgery were full with extra-curricular activities believe it or not- Sports Carnival (a supporter only this year though), Sunathon, HIP, Mercy's disaster simulation for World Food Programme...
My cousin's wedding marked the end of Surgery posting (with small morning tea that our group did for the surgery team and staff that morning) and now I can breath a relief sigh and let loose a bit this week.

I want the spirit of study smart, working hard and being proactive, aggressive (not aggressive as in aggressive in behaviour but in searching knowledge and improve skills) and motivated to stay with me until I achieve all my goals. This is my pledge at the moment.

We still have no internet connection at home. And that hinders me from jotting down my thoughts for surgery but I think everything's summarised up there.

The coming posting will totally be different... How different will it be? That's one thing that we have to wait and see but from other's experiences, it'll be a whole new adventure for us. I am currently preparing myself... mentally at that.
Hopefully it will go smoothly :)