Endless Game

The Not-so-Crazy Escapism 2013 #4: Home

(and good food plus good COFFEE)

Another 4 months and it will be exactly 2 years I'm in Batu Pahat, as a houseman. We've entered the final posting: Emergency and Trauma Department; a posting that I initially had palpitation (and perhaps still do from time to time) when I first received my logbook.

Time flies- when you enjoy what you are doing, has colleagues and friends who walk alongside you and encouraging and friendly environment to be in.

That said, of course there are ups and downs.

One of the ways I deal with pressure/stress is- no surprise- to go home.

Just to be in the familiar comfort of your surrounding and family, even for a day is good enough. And surprisingly, a walk-through crowded shopping mall somehow makes you feel like you have no other worries in your life.

Although stress isn't really the reason to come home this week- more of the intention of having lunch with old friend, some-kind of a half-cooked plan on my behalf. 

Deactivating my fb was perhaps one of the best thing I've done in my opinion for now but the downside is I kind of lost touch of what's happening with some friends. So the other option is to meet up =)

And I'm just glad that some things and some people just never change. Maybe we have, in many ways, but the old 'us' are still there. I long to meet the rest though... Although to be honest, I perhaps have not much update from my side... Haha...

Crazy Escapism perhaps will end up becoming "Short Trip Home" *sweats*

Third

Demam dah kebah, alhamdulillah.
Starting tomorrow I'm in the shift in A&E,
semoga dipermudahkan, Ameen.

Letter To Myself

Dear Me,
This is just a little reminder for us...

I am still taking baby-steps in the working field; even more baby-steps in the medical fraternity. Sometimes when you are going through minor bumps while working, some hurdles to get through and during tough times, you would forget why you chose this line in the first place.

What started as an interest in medical turned into something much more meaningful as I went through student life. Choosing to work in this field is no longer just because I’m interested in medical line, but rather to find His blessings and to work as His tool on Earth. And because as time we learned new things and go through different things, every day I remind myself for what am I working today?

If the answer is because of God Almighty, no matter how tough the day goes, insyaAllah, things somehow are easier. There will be small joy somewhere and you go home with satisfaction and you work with lighter heart. Online, sometimes I come across links that I thought would be interesting read or videos to watch. Today I re-open the links and was brought to this page: "Accepting Fate"

 It somehow left me deep impression and without realizing it, tears flowed.

Whatever challenges that I thought I had gone through, the tests that Allah gave this chap was heavier. Whatever hurdles and bumps that I stumbled upon seemed nothing compared to his. I can’t describe how fortunate we are to be able to work in our chosen field; and I’m ashamed to admit that even with that sometimes I have a lot of complaints.

Reading an overview of this young lad’s journey made me humble, really really humble. I am living some of my dreams, it would shameful if me as healthy as I am not putting my all towards my work and my life, not using every second towards something beneficial for myself and others and for my share in the hereafter. How fortunate are we to be given good health and time?

It is true that you appreciate life more when you remember death.

How can I spread the little message towards those in similar journey as mine to treasure what we have, work as best as we can to find God’s blessing and stop complaining and finding excuses?
How can I send the little message for us to be thankful everyday and to be positive and optimist in whatever situation that befalls us?
How can we remind each other of this everyday?

Sincerely,
Me.

Dinner at Marché

Good food with good accompanies concluded a happy night.



It has been a while since my last visit to Marché.
What I really like about this place is the ambiance, the market-style restaurant where you can go around and look at the menu and decide what you want to eat; from  Rosti to Grills to Seafood to Salad to Savoury Crepe. Marché also has a wide range of desserts ;)

 

Choose and pick. When you enter the restaurant, they'll give you a 'pass card' and they'll stamp your order. You will pay before you exit 'the market' based on the stamps on your pass card.

//Find empty table

//Rosti- Potato with sour cream, mint sauce & chilli sauce

//Savoury Crepe- mine with chicken and sauted mushroom filling.
Super YUMMEH!!

//Grilled Chicken with mashed potato

//Swiss Mocha!

//And you'll go home with full stomach feeling happier =D

Definitely will come back to eat here again!

Breathless

Different people relieve their stress differently. I try to try different things to ease some burden off my mind (and shoulder), be it emotionally, spiritually & physically. To top it off, I'm definitely Type A personality which mean I'm no risk taker, I play by the book, I follow rules, guarded and 'skema' most of the time.
So most of the time on my day off, it means doing laundry, house chores, top up food, sleep & rest, watching a little videos.... and study. Once in a while if I have friends to hang around with, we'll spend the day doing stuff like shopping, eating or bowling. What I decide to do on my day-off will depend on what I'll have the days coming and how tired I am and I was.

So it is very rare that I'd do something crazy like what I did today.

I call it 'Crazy Escapism 2013 #1'

I don't watch many movies in theatres, unless I deem it's worth it. Lately it's more of 'I don't have that much time to spend time in movie theatre- I'd rather do something else. Like sleeping.' But there's one particular movie that I wanted to watch- Ruroni Kenshin, live action. Admittedly I've watched it on my laptop -a few times- but, it's a wish I had since it came out last year- to watch it in cinema, even if I'm alone ^^;
For me, the casts, the cinematography, the swordsmanship, the OST- EVERYTHING about this movie is perfect and hence VERY VERY worthwhile to watch it in the cinema.And no, I'm not biased because I've watched the anime & read the manga since I was young, no..... XP Plus, Take-pon was in the movie so hey! 8D

Unfortunately for me there are only a few places showing it, and even more unfortunate, by today -which is my off-day- only two places in Malaysia are still showing it- MidValley & Penang.

And it's called Crazy Escapism because I drove to KL (which is 300km away from where I'm working) at 7 a.m., reached MidValley around 10 a.m.

Bought the ticket for 11 a.m. show, for me and Mom by the way. Yes, Mom actually accompanied me watching this movie xD

Had quick breakfast at Pancake House

Then went to watch the movie and soon after that, dropped by at IT exhibition (which answered my question the morning when I arrived as to why were there so many people waiting outside the exhibition hall) and had lunch and quick-update with Mom at Chilli's before heading back to Batu Pahat at 4 p.m. Reached home at around 7 p.m.

So yeah.... my conclusion is, day trip to KL IS possible! However, next time I'm doing this kind of Crazy Escapism, I'm not driving alone... Working 7 a.m. - 11 p.m. the day before THEN driving 600km alone is... VERY tiring. I'm just ready to crash any moment now... Plus, I'm on-call tomorrow... so yeah...

On the other note, one of our Geng Makan is going very soon... =(
While we got closer as friends and colleagues, we were very much aware that in the end, most of us are leaving- to go back home, further studies & doing masters or just being transferred out... Still, we do hope that the friendship doesn't end here...

Half of us at the farewell lunch, sponsored by the one leaving. Who knows, next time we meet, it will be outside Batu Pahat already xD

Bubbles

How long was it since we last play 'bubbles'?
Stopped by Dataran Penggaram to enjoy the colourful lights which led to impromptu buy
For a moment, we played like there's no need to go for work tomorrow
Brought out the child-side in us

I wished I had my DSLR with me
The thousand bubbles + the lights from the trees + happy & carefree expression = priceless!

 

Still...

抱えた物の多さに潰れそうなその時には　思い出して　
ずっと繋いできた　その手は嘘じゃないから
When you feel like you're being crushed by all the burden you carry, just remember
The hand you've been holding onto all this time is not a lie
-Still... (Coupling song of single Happiness (2007) by Arashi)

These are just some reminders, more for myself, in time of disappointment or sadness... because there's no sadness in Islam =)

When things do not go exactly the way we wanted, 

when we do not achieve what we have tried so hard to achieve 

or when we feel so let down by others, 

then always know that for as long as we have faith and trust in the Almighty

He definitely has something better in store for us, 

has saved us from a calamity or disaster that would have been in our path or 

has elevated our status through surrendering to His decree.  

We are not considered believers until we are pleased with the Decisions of the Almighty.  

Try your best and leave the rest to Him.

- Mufti Ismail Menk

On the other note, can I have this (picture) as a present? xD The Penna Bear, not the bike thank you.

Saw it in Arashi ni Shiyagare where Mogi Kenichiro was the guest- am intrigued and I thought the concept behind it is awesome! And guess who guessed it correctly the first time in such a short time? xD

"A souvenir that stimulates your brain, with a huge secret behind it; that lies on the shape of its back. There's also a profound life message in the answer" -Mogi Kenichiro

Often time...

Salam,

Just got off-tagged today, so I thought I'd share some thought that came across my mind a few days ago.

Often times, for us who work in this field, when patients come with late presentation and poor prognosis, worse if they defaulted treatment or relatives placed high 'demands' while we are in rushed or have more urging matter to attend to, we'll get irritated and angry easily.

Often times, when this happen we will start to place the blame on something or someone else.

Especially if it happens in the middle of the night when we wish we can just sit for a few minutes and fill our empty stomach and close our eyes for a little after working and rushing the whole day.

I am still new in this field; still making that baby-steps yet only God knows how often these thoughts came into my mind.

Oh, how much guilt now do I have?

Because to be honest, in the end, Who send these patients into our paths?
So in the end, if you become angry despite being tired, hungry and sleepy, to whom actually are you directing your anger at?

Just some points to ponder.
Wallahualam.

La Tahzan

“...whosoever follows My guidance, on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve...” (2:38)

This is the ayah that a sister of mine whom I have high respect for based on when she said to me “there is no sadness in Islam, Wani, la tahzan”. It was years and years back. I can’t remember exactly what occasion it was but that particular sentence stuck in my head since then.

Especially when feeling troubled.

So there are times when we get upset over things, big or small. Perhaps it helps if we try to remember this ayah...

La Tahzan :)

Paintball

29th December 2012, Kulaijaya

Team Ortho HSNI, Batu Pahat organized paintball match; joined by MOs, HOs & SNs from different department. Kudos to the organizer!

I didn't go to play - blame it on being scardy-cat & low pain tolerance  but offered my service as the photographer (despite the fact that I suck at taking photos but pretend to know how to ^^; ). Didn't bring the camera but used one of the MOs' DSLR. It was a fun event, definitely a must in the future!

Just to share some pictures~

The participants, early morning before departing

Them in action!

THEN, the MOs (plus one HO & SN), 

VS.

The HOs

After-battle faces

Later that night, some of us went for bowling. Then back to work (or off day for some) the next day.

It's 2nd of January, 2013.
We said goodbye to 2012 and welcome 2013.
So have you decided on this year's resolutions yet? ;)